Recently I got a new job. I liked it well enough and I thought I was doing fine at it. Well apparently I was wrong and they called me a dumbshit and told me that I wouldnt be able to handle changing lightbulbs and unclogging toilets so I got a demotion. Yup only 3 weeks in and I have had my hours cut in half and while my laziness doesnt mind the short work days I unfortunately just got my pathetic, depressing, and already almost gone paycheck. I have come to the realization that I may be in danger of losing the ability to even buy the drugs that I love to keep around to hold me back. But lets face it if I wasnt a druggie i'd probably be a dictator, a very corrupt cop, or an insanely by the book cop who never lets anyone get away with anything and is just a huge dick all the time and when im not around the other cops all talk about what an asshole I am but they never really tell me to my face cuz it seems like im the kind to hold a grudge and they're right I would because really I just want to be accepted but if I dont stay rigid in my stance against reasonable guilt I wont really know what the fuck to do with myself so then i'd probably start doing drugs in secret just so I can loosen up but I get too loose and start raiding the evidence locker and making hookers blow me to stay out of jail and yet even though I've changed myself so drastically from a boy scount to bad lieutenant no one that I made that change for actually likes me still because now i'm too much of a hot mess of corruption they are afraid to even be around me so I fall into a pit of loneliness and eventually I start to hate everyone and I become a racist who hates every race other than whatever the fuck hot ass jessica alba is cuz goddamn she looks good so theres nothing wrong with those genes. So eventually I accidentally shoot a minority during a routine traffic stop and I say that my gun just went off on accident but because i'm white looking and because I was high on crack at the time and because there was a brief moment I decided to take my penis out to see if it was longer than my gun barrel I'm suddenly a culpable in the eyes of the law monster. So clearly no matter what I do it seems to be ending badly for me no matter what. Some people were made to be doctors, some people are lawyers, others are janitors, some lucky ones are pornstars although i have a feeling most of them had bad childhoods but then some of us just have no fucking place in this world. When you cant even just be a druggie loser correctly you really need to take stock of your life because holy fuck something went wrong, or I went wrong or the world simply became a bit full with people with a purpose, meaning or goal in life and there just isnt room for me. Jesus christ why the fuck would anyone ever read this?