Something to do

I’ve been clean off meth for about a month now and i suddenly realize I have zero hobbies outside of watching movies, writing and running. That may sound like a good amount to some of you but its not when you dont have a regular day job. Working is something that i never really took much of a shine to which is probably why I have landed on writing as a hobby. You clock in whenever, you get off whenever, no boss and the only limit is your imagination. Now before you accuse me with your accuser stick and call me an entitled little bitch just remember that for the most part I totally agree with you. I am entitled, I think that I am due unearned shit. I think im better than most people yet im a drug addled loser who lives with his parents. Why do I think like this? I really dont know. Clearly im not better when it comes to being successful, im not a gorgeous physical specimen, im barely smart so why the entitlement? Is it because I was more or less raised as an only child with my only sibling somewhere else being raised by a different person? Is the truth that I have very little to actually offer people which is why im alone in life most of the time? Who knows. I think it may be time for me to really reevaluate myself and come to a conclusion! Am I simply better or do I just think so? While most likely its the latter I am still not fully willing to believe that and dont know if I ever will. Please feel free to leave comments telling me I suck or rule or have a micropenis all are welcome.