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In need of song

Being big on movies and comedy has been one of the main aspects of my life. I follow actors, directors, even cinematographers through their work. I also am huge on stand up comedy and comedy podcasts. Some of my favorites are how did this get made, comedy bang bang, and spontaneanation. For film podcasts I stick almost exclusively to Linoleum knife with dave white and his husband alonso something or other. Ive just recently turned 33 and i found myself falling into some kind of funk. I no longer had the interests and excitement I usually get from watching something new and fun. I found that I couldnt hold interest in any podcasts to even find them funny or interesting. I assumed I was just suffering from some serious drug withdrawal and that probably is part of it but I cant stand the idea that drugs alone can define me so I decided to search more for what I was missing. I’ve never been too huge on music. I like it fine and have always thought of it more as a background noise type of thing. Sometimes I would listen to classical or opera when reading or writing. So my big life altering (yes i say altering) idea was to go back and listen to everything I used to listen to when I was a kid. I started of course with system of a down because im cheesy but that dragged me into a huge wormhole of hardcore, grindcore, metal and screamo that slowly but surely started to ease me out of my funk. It was a strange realization to me that music with rage in it allows me such an outlet that no amount of gory scary movies ever could. Dont get me wrong I am first and foremost a movie fan but after these past couple of weeks of enjoying music and getting my zest for movies and comedy back I will never discount music as just background again. Please feel free to leave comments and suggestions for hardcore type shit.

#music #harmony # metal # grindcore # podcasts #withdrawal # movies